My Future

Difficult to see my future was
a world without you my future was
a wisdom not yet tested my future was
and along came you
along came you and changed ideas
changed my voice
changed my heart
You challenged my thoughts
helped me see the trees and feel the breeze
you made me critique my own face when the world called me ugly
when the world broke my heart and flipped my script
you reminded me…
Im just trying to do whats right
trying to create man without a mold in the image of what I’ve not seen
trying to “give in” while being bold
trying to be wise and warm in a world thats ignorant and cold
and I struggle
….I struggle…..
I struggle with myself and want for things I dont yet desrve
you ease my struggles with your kind words
And please forgive me for expressing untimely emotions
This is all so new to my heart
and the extent of my damage I wont attempt to mention
so please forgive me if I dont choose either or
just know that I’m happy that the choice is from you
forgive me if I forget
forgive me if I falter
forgive me if I get to close
forgive me if I ask to much or move too fast
…forgive me…
but I went so long
….so long….
I need you to understand that I need to be touched
my heart needs to be held
I need to be told that it’s real because in our world
so many decieve the truth and lie to themselves for pretend happiness
they pretend happiness to keep up
pretend to get over
pretend to feel good
and pretend to look right when really they are stuck in what’s wrong
you never give me reason to pretend
Difficult to see my future was
a world without you my future was
a wisdom not yet tested my future was
and along came you
…My future…